new blog

I have a new blog . If anyone is interested email me at sunboojr@aol.com . Hope everyone is doing well.

Goodbye Old blog of mine

Well Marc and I decided that it is time to say goodbye to this blog. Between old friends that find it and get drunk and post obnoxious comments. My ex finding it and emailing about how great his life is without kids and how sucky my life looks in this blog. And now we found out (because of the blog tracker) that Marc's ex also has been lurking as well without ever commenting .

I have also been pretty honest in my blogging never sugar coating our life. Airing my concerns about the direction we are taking ect. I thought I was talking to friends , family and a few Internet friends with similar interests/ values. These people would comment or if they did not feel comfortable commenting send me an email about a post. We were both pretty shocked to see our ex's checking the blog 5 , 6 sometimes 10 times a day. It freaked us out.

We may start another blog . This time using initials or nicknames and if you want to know where you can email us or just post a comment here. Maybe we will start it after the 2nd baby is born.

Anyway I am still going to be checking up on all my favorite blogs and staying in touch with all my Internet friends. We were just hoping that this blog would keep us in touch when we moved away in January, but we might try again . Take care.

My B-day is tomorrow

Question: Am I too old to put pink streaks in my hair for a month? You vote by post.

Belly Shot

So we are watching the Women's Marathon via bunny ears (can't get cable till Tues) but I am pretty happy to watch it. We were supposed to go out for my B-day but the babysitter called and had "something" come up. Oh well. I am happy to be home and watch the marathon. Marc ran the club Championship this morning. I did not . I think my last race was last week. I was pretty wiped out after. Anyway it was great to see the team. Everyone did really well in the hot and VERY Humid morning. Jared took his amazing pictures.

So i have gotten some emails asking me for a shot of myself. So i am posting this shot . Rory is trying to get me to stand up at the race. I know that I have about 7 pregnant readers. And some of you guys are runners. So I just want to put a quick disclaimer on this. As you guys know the past month has been a bit stressful. And as I start my 33rd week of pregnancy I am not proud to say I have only gained 15 pounds. At this point with Rory I had almost gained 30 pounds. The baby is fine ...however the doctor would would like to see me gain weight. And ask Marc I am doing my best. I have also cut my mileage back. But I really dont think it was running it was literally moving twice and all the drama.


oh No Deena Kastor just dropped out !!

Pine Bush , New York

Who are you ?

Isaac Hayes tribute

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gX8cIdXlHuU&feature=related

lurkers

So yesterday I put a blog ticker on my blog. Basically it tracks how many hits I get and it gives me the IP address of anyone that visits. With that address I am able to obtain the city and state in which they are lurking from. I always suspected that I had more viewers then actually posters , which i guess is always the case. But I am really shocked and a bit alarmed to see almost 70 hits 24 hours later. Also shocked to see California (Chel is that you ) , Chicago (cousins??) , Portland ( is that you Dana?). So I ask show yourself!!?? who are you guys?

Italian Federation 5K

So we took a break from moving in to run a local 5k. I am pretty happy with my time 31 weeks pregnant I ran a 24:27. Marc ran with the jogging stroller at 21:10. And Rory won her heat at the kids fun run. Jared took his signature amazing pictures and here are a few. \

If you have ever sat naked on a hotel bedspread you dont want to miss this post .

If you want the rest of this story email me at sunboojr@aol.com . Lets just say we are moving again. Nicer place , river view , very happy . Should have the keys tomorrow . Special thanks to Jeff and Sara who are letting us use there home while they are away while we figured out what to do.

30 plus miles for 30 weeks

My goal was almost realized except for 2 weeks. Week 28 only saw 25 miles. My excuses: heat, decided we were going to move, parents visit. Week 30 also saw only 21 miles excuses: heat, and actually moving . With hopefully 10 minus weeks to go in this pregnancy I want to still try and maintain close to this mileage.

Things are looking up.

You know it has been a rough couple of weeks. But this morning I received an email from an ex that made me feel great. Even though I am pretty sure it was not his intention. I have copy and pasted it below for you all to evaluate. I deleted his name (although all you GL people will know who he is) and I doubt he will look at this blog again becasue he seems pretty busy. :)

Hey,

If you look at the "time sent" stamp on this you'll see it about 2:30am. I'm up late because I got back from the Sheryl Crow concert late and decided to check my email before I went to bed. For some strange reason, I googled you and finally found your blog. Looks like you have had quite a busy, and sometimes difficult couple of years. I'm only writing because as I read your blog, I realized just how different our lives are now. I am still very busy with the property, I 'm in the second year of my corn crop, 720,000 corn plants this year. Not to mention an extensive garden with a multitude of different veggies and flowers. Very satisfying. Most of Wednesday was spent on the boat, Today was the track and the Sheryl Crow concert, tomorrow is the Police with Elvis Costello, Sat. is the annual Yacht Club Town Hall Meeting, Sunday I'll be in Cooperstown for a special gift for Dave, etc. You get the idea. My days are filled with fun, or hard work, or relaxation, or whatever I choose for myself when I get up. I am happy and content, and Lindsay is a wonderful gift. The wedding is only about 5 weeks away, and we will be in Maui for 2 weeks after. We travel often, only because of the wedding did we slow down at all, but it will still be about 4 vacations this year. (Just shorter) We'll be going to Burlington VT (where I was born), for the first time since I left 50 years ago, for my birthday on the 15th.
The entire point of this email is that I just wanted to tell you that despite all the difficulty that I encountered after our breakup, I really believe (especially after reading your blog) that the right decision was made. I really believe that all the work, and strife, and difficulty you encounter raising a child (soon to be 2), despite all the rewards, would have ever been something that I could deal with on a daily basis. Lindsay and I have extremely fulfilling and exciting lives. We love each other deeply, and we our constantly doing both big and little things to surprise each other. Her family is great, and since there are a few nieces and nephews, not to mention Dave's son, I can get my fix of kids when I need, without all the other stuff. Love EX


Anyway what this made me realize is that I am really happy and lucky to be where I am today.

Where did all the good people go ?

This Jack Johnson song keeps going through my head. I feel like in the last 2 weeks my little family has been taking a lot of punches. I think it started a day or 2 before we left Maine when a crazy bookstore owner accused Rory of ripping a book. She had been right next to me the whole time and suddenly this woman grabbed her arm and and said she had ripped this 35 dollar signed childerns book. I have not blogged about this because I am not proud of my reaction. Don't piss off Mama bee because the Hive is not that stable . Anyway Rory started crying and her arm was red from where the woman grabbed her. I did not know the woman was the owner . I have been going there ever summer for years. Those of you that know me well know I love books and if Rory had ripped a book i would buy it immediately but she was no where near this book and had been at my side or in my arms the 3 minutes we were there. Anyway the woman called the police but they told me that she has early dimentia and is not right. Then we get home and basically are told that there will be construction done , I did not mention that they said that we could stay and they would do it in piece meal but WTF so we told them we would leave. They found 3 guys to live there and even though we worked so hard to leave the place spottless are taking half our deposit because they said we only gave them 2 weeks notice !! but we were on vacation !! and they had our phone # and they knew we were on vacation becasue we asked if they could water our plants!! and brought them 2 nice bottles of wine for doing it . Then i still dont have my cobra info and DHL tried to deliver it but our buzzer was broken (I did not know) So i called DHL and asked if next time they could call my cell PLEASE and they said "your buzzer being broken is not our problem" So I still dont have it and it is almost the end of the month . Next the doctor I changed to left the practice one week after he looked me in the eyes and we went over my NEW birth plan. I found out offically when I went to my appt. So i have to change to another doctor that is not as aggressive about VBAC's . Also when we looked at this apt we were told that a family lived upstairs from us. I was happy because that meant that they would proably go to bed at a normal hour and we would not have any noise issues. Well there is not family there is 4 middle eastern men all living in the same size apt as we are. They are up all hours of the night . I am so sad I just want Rory to sleep through the night but it is impossible. I dont know what we should have done differently . Look longer ... we only had so much time. I dont know what to do. And then i basically lost a friend of 20 years. I dont know what is going on with her but I can't deal with it anymore. What she did the other night is unforgivable and I have no choice.

stress

I feel really stressed. We got back from Maine and not only is the construction not done under us . The adjoining row house is going to be gutted in the next 3 weeks and that construction will take at least 6 months. The new owner of the house actually tried to come find us when he heard I was pregnant and had a little girl . To warn us that our home would soon be full of concrete dust, possibly lead paint particles and even asbestos !! So we are moving in the next 2 weeks. We are hoping to at least get part of the deposit back but who knows.

I know this might see extreme but our house shakes when construction is done downstairs I can't imagine the adjoining rooms being gutted and what that will sound like. And if you have kids you know how important naps are. Rory is a completely different kid if she does not get a good nap in the afternoon. It is really amazing.

OH and we are moving out of NYC in January so we only need a place for 5 months. This is really hard to find. but we think we found a furnished place. They of course want all 5 months up front. Smaller then ours now but cheaper. We will put our stuff in storage and just take what we need. Crib/ bassinet / clothes . basically like going on vacation . we will be in the same neighborhood .

God I hope this works out. Today I am transfering funds and filling out paperwork and Marc has already missed 2 days of work to deal with this. I am having BH contractions all the time but I think i just need to drink more water.

My parents are coming tomorrow for a visit and I feel bad that our home is now in boxes and that some of our plans are canceled so we can get ready to move. They are staying at a hotel but still .

I hope Rory deals with this move ok. A lot of her toys have to go to storage (not that she has a lot ) but still. One probably is our new apt is a 4 th floor walk up so if Marc is gone i have to walk the stroller down 4 flights and rory to get her to the park . But we will deal with it . I just have to take my time and not rush .

Maine

Well we are wrapping up our 2 week vacation in Maine. I love it here. The weather has been great. And Rory has been amazing . She really has handled everything well. Not having electricity, the ruggage terrain , ect.


She is able to escape out of her pack - n- play. Where does she get the upper body strength ??! We had it out on the screened in porch for naps and I was laying in the hammock on the other side of the house. Somehow she crawled out opened the screened in porch walked down a flight of steps on the outside of the house around the front and all of a sudden I hear gravel footsteps (did i mention she was only wearing a diaper) and says "Hi Mama!" So now we have her taking naps in a tent that we zip up with her matteress in there.

Another highlight was a 10k in Stonington, Maine on July 4th . It was hilly but really cool weather and I was back and forth with the winner of my age group. She was a local and knew where the finish was so she got me in the end. Also hard to sprint these days . I finished with a 48:15 and Marc finished with the stroller in 44 minutes flat. We were both pretty happy . I wore my Mama for Obama shirt and got lots of laughs.

I am about to enter my last trimester and I can't wait. I hope that when we get back to NYC the contruction they were doing below us is done. They promised it would be but they promise a lot of things and normally it doesnt happen. So that is about it . We miss all our NYC friends and I look forward to seeing Astoria Park moms and dads.

Can someone tell me what the Man in the Yellow Hat does for a living????

This dude has a high rise apartment in the city. A house in the country. He drives a convertible. And he has a lot of free time that he spends with a monkey.

Donna do you still read this blog

If you do please email me at sunboojr@aol.com . I am lookinng for a new doctor and need your advice!

When is my due date ??!!!

With Rory I knew exactly when she was due and even though in the last month my doctor moved my due date earlier 4 days I still knew when she had been conceived. With this one who is known as TBD I have no idea. My last period (sorry boys ) was December 21 ( I was and am still breastfeeding so everything was screwy) which would have her due Sept 27th. But the first ultrasound we had said Oct 10th the second a week later Oct 19 and the third 1 week after that Oct 16 . (I had a lot of ultrasounds because of my progesterone being so low) Oh and dont even ask me when we had sex because I had finally lost the baby weight, Rory was sleeping through the night so ALL of January was Sex Fest 08. And then there was what Marc called pity sex when he didnt get in to the graduate program he wanted so who knows. Anyway it didnt bother me that I didnt know until this week I really want to know am I 24 or 25 weeks pregnant??? I know it is just a weeks difference but mentally it would mean so much .

Mini 10k

So I ran the mini 10k today. For some reason I am not under my Hellgate team but just my name. My time was 50:03 and my goal had been to run under an 8 minute pace and i came close . At the start it was already in the 70's and by the end i swear it was in the 80's. I am pretty happy with the time. I was on target until after mile 5 running with a New York Flyer girl who totally helped me through that mile. But I fell apart the last mile. I was hot and that mile in Central Park is always a tough one for me. Anyway it felt so good to see my team and talk to them. I have to try and get out with friends at least twice a month. I hope this was not my last race in Central Park .

Thanks anonymous guy

I made it to 40 miles! All because of a guy on the track. I ran about 3 1/2 miles before finally going over to the track. I was going pretty slow and almost had started to walk. I entered the track thinking I would do a lap to see my pace and head back home. When a guy came up on the inside lane (I was in lane 2) I figure he would pass me but we stayed together for a lap then we came up to a walker in lane 2 . He sped ahead so i could duck in and then slowed up again so i could get even with him. This is when I realized this guy wants to run with me. I was pretty happy since A. I am 21 week prego and B he was young , early twenties , hottie. ( sorry Marc but I am having your second kid what more do you want) so we ran 2 1/2 miles on the track at under a 8 minute pace . NOt a word was spoken both listening to headphones . At the end he stopped a lap earlier and when I came around again I thanked him for his help and he thanked me. This rarely happens to me where I find someone that just wants to pace with me not chat or race just run it was great and made me feel good. Especially because I have been feeling really unattractive lately. Not like this guy was asking me out but he was not embarrassed to run with me so it felt nice.

20 weeks !!!

Well I am over the half way point. So far i have maintained between 32 to 42 miles per week. This week I hope to get 40 miles in . I want to try and keep up the mileage until at least week 30 . but we will see... In other news Marc and I have no plan as of yet. We seem to be spinning in circles waiting for a divine message to point us in the direction we should go. One option on the table is buying a 30 foot cabin cruiser and making our way from Maine down to Key West. This is actually not a joke . But at what port would I give birth ?

Password

hey I think my blog needs to go password protected for a while. When I post again I will email anyone that wants the password. Email me at sunboojr@aol.com once it gets protected. Thanks

Final Countdown

2 more days to go and then my career in TV comes to an end. 12 years to the day. I started at The Rosie show May 15th 1996 before it even went on air. It has been so much fun but I am burnt out . And the fact that my daughter is almost 17 months and says Dada, birdie, duck, bottle, ROry, up, no, yes, outside, hi and juice but notice what is missing. I swear she said Keith the other day and pointed to Keith Olbermann on TV. I think I am making the right decision . IF I don't jump now then when?

Does your job define who you are ?

I am about to find out. I resigned effective mid May.

Philadelphia

I am here. Things are good. Remotes are fun. I love them. However I have never been at a remote where I could not go out drinking with the crew . I was telling the kids (what i call jr. staff) stories about hooking up on remotes. It is a common practice and anyone that works in TV knows. And by hooking up i can just mean making out. Anyway it happens long hours, couple of cocktails and suddenly you are making out with a Disney employee on the safari ride at Animal Kingdom. Anyway one of the kids (jr. staff) asked if I could who would I hook up with on this remote. I thought about it for a second and then said "well I have been in negotiations with him for about 2 weeks so I guess it would be Ben Franklin" To which one of them said "Kate be careful he has syphilis "

To blog or not to blog

I dont have a lot to say. WORK WORK WORK ! I average about 115 emails a day lately. I get home and go out for a run come back 1 hr later to 15 emails. Lots of drama at work but that happens with remotes. Everyone is working hard and stressed. I leave for Philly Saturday. Going to miss my baby soooo much.

80% height 5 % weight !!! yikes !!

I am off this week so I got to take Rory to the doctor. Marc and I went together and i am glad because a lot of the questions I could not answer I would only look at Marc. I am never home for meals with her. And although I feed her when I am off I have really no idea of patterns. I see her for 1 1/2 hours every night and about 40 minutes in the morning. It is a strange situation with me always nagging Marc , she needs more vegetables, fruit or she needs to eat more ect. But then i always back down because he is her primary care giver and at some point I doubt my own self. But today we were basically told that we have to get her to eat more. She has lost weight since her last doctor visit but grown 2 or 3 inches. She is 32 inches and 19 pounds . At 15 months this is really skinny. I felt like the worst mom. Marc and I have such different ways of approaching parenting. I like structure . Meal times, nap times . (with in reason) he is more free flowing. She naps when she naps and eats when she eats ect... Did I mention I hate that I am not home with her more.

Easter in Long Island

Went Well! I know this sounds really depressing but it was the first time she did not say anything negative to me. We stayed about 5 hours. Rory had a great time. There is so many knick knacks everywhere it is a 15 month old paradise. It makes me want to go out there more.

Easter

Took Rory to Easter Egg hunt at Queens Farm. YOu should go to their website. They have so many events for kids. Marc is taking Rory to the kids carvinal in APril while I will be in Philadelphia so if anyone wants to join them... Anyway the 4 and under hunt is just as aggresive as the older kids. If i had not picked her up and started running toward the eggs we would have ended up with none. As it was we had a grand total of 2 . One donated by a 4 year old who felt bad for us. "Mommy look they only have one egg in their basket" as we walked back to the start. Marc video taped it but they would not let him pass the start, only one parent, so all you see is me finally picking her up and start running toward the eggs. They have a petting zoo and she talked to the sheep. They would Baaaa and she would BAaaa back. They also have a kids band and kids dance. So cute.

On another note this baby is kicking my butt. I am so tired and feel sick. I can't wait for the 1st trimester to be over. We were supposed to have Easter here because of this and Rory's recent carsickness (anything over 30 minutes ) but Marc forgot to ask his mom and sister to come here so they assumed we were coming out there. So it turned into hurt feelings and angry calls to Marc on Friday . You don't even want to know what was said . So i just finally said lets go out there it is not worth it. So we are going tomorrow. I am always nervous about going out there. Last time we were out there a month ago. MY MIL told Rory that her Father was the most talented creative man in the world and well your mother we put up with her. She did not know i was in the doorway and I just said "ummm that was nice and walked away" Marc talked to her later but it doesnt matter nothing changes. She wishes Marc married someone else ... someone less to quote her "American". It is so hard and now harder with a child. My grandparents never said one negative word about either of my parents. I have tried to talk to her , emailed her ect but how do you change the additude of a 75 year old woman. Anyway we will see tomorrow...

New Post

This is for my dad who says I don't post enough. However how many times has he commented ???? Ran 35 miles last week . Still Prego. Rory is amazing . Talks non stop I can't understand a thing but I pretend and she seems to appreciate that. Show is going on the road in April. Press release comes out tomorrow but you can probably guess where we are going. Good thing is that it is close so Rory and Marc will be able to come see me for a few days. OK Dad ? You should start a Dad blog.

I have the flu

UGH!!! After running on Saturday I came home and started feeling horrible. I have a fever of 101 which is high for me I never run a fever. Tylenol just does not work for me but I can't take anything else. No running today. I just hope to make it to work tomorrow. I have to.

everything is good

I am still only measuring 7 weeks but the doctor said today's ultrasound was more accurate. So I think my orginal prediction of being newly pregnant was right. ALthough I was hoping that i was further along because of my LMP. So I dont have to go back for 4 weeks YEAH!! I saw the heartbeat. and a little semi bean. I still feel overwhelmed . I can barely be a good mom to 1 baby and now 2!!! On another note Rory has the stomach flu she woke up at 4am with a fever and sick to her stomach (over and over again) I stayed up with her until I had to go to the doctor and then to work. She was so upset when I put on my coat I felt awful. I hate HATE not being home more. I can't wait for the weather to get warmer because at night now i have to chose between a 1 hour run or 1 extra hour with my daughter. Soon we can all go out together. Do you think my doctor will let me push the jogging stroller and run while pregnant hahahahahha? I already got him to cave and keep allowing me to breastfeed . Can you believe he has never had a client breastfeed while pregnant? Ok that is all for now. Thanks everyone.

the roller coaster continues

I went today to the doctor. He did an internal ultrasound . I told him i was going to look away until he told me to look. He said he saw a yolk sac and that was good. He looked and looked and looked for the heartbeat. I was measuring at 7 weeks. He could not find one but was optimisic. So now I wait another 8 days , next thursday for another ultrasound. I am exhausted. It has been 2 weeks since i had the positive test. With Rory we saw the heartbeat at 5 1/2 weeks. Also I feel like I should be at 9 weeks. If I am going by my LMP which was Dec 21st. I know I am breastfeeding so that might throw it off. And I have only had 3 periods since giving birth in Dec 06 (sorry boys who read my blog). I was ready today for any news. i was braced. I even went by myself because I felt i could handle the news better on my own if it was bad. Not knowing is the worst part.

The little fighting Shupp

Looks like I am a baby having a baby. Numbers were good. Still don't know how far along I am. I can't believe that we were told a month ago that we had almost NO chance of getting pregnant without fertility treatment. Apparently Marc only has a few sperm but the ones he has have the endurance of Lance Armstrong. Looks like I can say goodbye to the New Jersey Marathon and Graduate School. Please don't take that as being ungrateful. I am very grateful and thankful for all the prays and good thoughts. I am just processing this all. THANK YOU TO EVERYONE !! Thanks for taking this roller coaster with me.

no news

Thank you everyone for all your prays and well wishes. I go back to the doctor on Tuesday. He wanted me in Monday but 2 weeks ago Marc and I were asked to come interview for a Masters program at the University of Southern Maine. After a lot of talking we decided to still go interview. So we leave tomorrow for 2 nights in Portland.

Also I know this is going to sound naieve but like CHelle posted I know my body. I feel like the doctor was wrong. My levels were low but only because I was so newly pregnant. I still dont know how far along i am officially but we started thinking that i might be only 3 1/2 weeks. I hope I hope I hope.

Thanks again to all of you your support means so much. I promise to keep you posted.

Good thoughts or prays

I am not one to usually ask for these things but we are in need of them at the moment. Wednesday I found out I was pregnant. It was a huge surprise and I did not know how far along I was. I went to the doctor today and apparently my levels are very low and he thinks I will miscarry in the next few days. He has me on protestorgeon but good thoughts and prays are needed too. THank you so much.


With lots of tears flowing down our faces,

Kate and Marc

New Blogger

My friend Sue has a new blog. Please take a look at it when you have a chance. Thanks Happy New Year

http://proudtobeanamericanliberal.blogspot.com/